thepastisforeverinescapable

Trust Me.

Fri, 22 Feb 2002 01:23:31 GMT

Done here for a while. If I post it'll be in FrankisTheGreat, which you should add as a friend if you wanna hear me. Not deleting, but i'm not gonna update much period. Everything seems straightend out now, i'll be in a spore state for a few months. L8r.

-Frankis

PS: The current contest is still unsolved, since it hasn't been up long. You can win if you really wanna. I don't care anymore so give it a shot. That is my favorite song tho, you should know it.

It's a damn school bus!

Thu, 21 Feb 2002 03:54:14 GMT

One of my favorite all time songs, so i figured i'd post it and start the infamous lyrics contest once more. Good luck, the rules of a DIRECT CONTACT apply in order to win. This does not mean an IM unless you have made an attempt to contact me in some other way. Additional Note: Miso soup is off the prize list.

We could write our names here in the mud
No one's around to see them
We could hang our shoes here in a tree
No one's around to steal them
I could give you a star, you could give me one too
And that way we'd be even
And I could sing a song way outta tune
And not care a bit about it
We could both wear cowboy hats and
pretend that we could speak italian
I could eat some gum and make my breath
so minty fresh to kiss you
My breath would smell like wine, I like that a lot
Especially when I kiss you
And I could hit my funny bone real hard
and you could call me sweetheart
Who ever said there's nothing new under the sun
Never thought that much about individuals,
but he's dead anyway

Phrase that pays:I like cheese. That's all. I don't have anything else to say except that I want to apologize for anything dumb I said in my last post. I just have a mind which likes to be really cool sometimes. I'm sure you understand. I may be crazy, but at least i'm not sancho. L8r.

-Frankis

Random thoughts... lesee if I even finish the post

Tue, 19 Feb 2002 22:31:33 GMT

I'm typing and I don't know if I can finish, since I can't even start. I've barely started my essay for composition and I have to type it tommorow in class. The topic:Myself. I have a lot of trouble with that subject, although it should be so easy. I hate writing about me because I'm boring... then I started thinking(it's all I do) and I realized how fucking fake I act. I never acted myself and thats why I started to lose everything in the first place. Dark is just a name. It's not who I am. I am still the same person that I started out to be... I just got lost somewhere along the way. I lost who I was... and I'm not staying this way. I'm not gonna sit here and be depressed forever. Remember me at the end of last year? That's what I want to be again. I'd say may 1st thru late fall was me being who I wanted to. I can see now where it all went wrong... somewhere around mid october. That's where I lost sight of what I was doing. I'm significantly less confused now. I just wanna concentrate on who I am. I'm not gonna take the 28 remaining days. I'm just gonna straighten things out now. I've got things that I want to say to people and I can't, which is what's been holding me back in this state. I... I want to say how I feel, but I won't because I don't want to hurt anyone. I'm just gonna try and get back to me... there's gotta be a way to bring back the real Frankis. I'll do it. I'll see you when I get there.

-Frankis

I lost and found all my thoughts in this post... I don't know what i poured into it, and I don't know if I'll just end up deleting it... but that up there is exactly what I was thinking.

Mon, 18 Feb 2002 20:41:13 GMT

I am perfectly aware of the way I am acting and I plan on correcting it. If things don't change in 29 days you are free to kill me. Deal? Deal.

-Frankis

And we call it the Super Mario Song...

Fri, 15 Feb 2002 22:01:53 GMT

I read a lot of old entries and print them out... which means that i'm still clinging to the past. I have my hands firmly grasped upon the edge as I dangle and it's a wonderful place to be when you've got nowhere else to go. What else can be said. No, I haven't made a decision yet and no there is no talks in the future plan. Everybody that's going, have a nice time tomorrow night. Don't do anything stupid... like be me! I swear, I get more confused by the minute. I'm gettin offline becos i've been on for 1 hour and 3 minutes reading nonstop and my eyes are starting to hurt. I used up the last of the ink too. But I never let go. I don't care who thinks I should.

-Frankis

Yanosh took the Baby!

Wed, 13 Feb 2002 02:14:45 GMT

Anyone who can tell me where that line is from gets a dollar^^.

I would like to take this opportunity to make an official apology to anyone who was a participant in "Puttin on the Ritz." That was absolutley sickening as a result of how cool all the equipment in our school auditorium is. We also had my genius parents as our chairpersons... enough said. I'm very sorry for everything that you people were put thru, and I also apologize to Sarah for the fact that several people were late to your party.

I stayed home today with my wonderful little flu. Slept for a long long time, then watched Lord of the Rings. Yes, I have a copy of it on video already. Working in a video store(yes, 3 jobs now) always has it's benefits. I slept for a while today and thought for the rest, realizing in that deep period of thought exactly how the world functions. So then, what did we realize today?
1. I delete entries more than post(3 in the last 10 minutes)
2. A wizard is never late, and never early. He arrives exactly when he intends to.
3. The world has given me all the chances it intended to and I have missed them all. Haven't I?

That's all. I'm gonna either think more or have a bowl of basic4. Cereal is everything. L8r.

-Frankis

ps. I am taping Puttin on the Ritz right now, so if you want a copy i'll get you one... 1,2,3...HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Tue, 12 Feb 2002 18:01:47 GMT

Man, the flu rocks... wait, no it doesn't.

Guess What!?

Wed, 06 Feb 2002 00:21:19 GMT

Melissa has just won the lyrics contest.
Answer - Dashboard Confessional - Again I go Unnoticed.
Congratulations on your victory over the Sarah monopoly.

-Frankis

Name a small neutral country in Europe that scares you...

Tue, 05 Feb 2002 03:42:36 GMT

Well, i'm feeling good and tired but for some reason I had a driving urge to come down here and fight the busy servers so that I could start the equal opportunities lyrics contest. It has been said by people whom we shall not name that perhaps they were unable to be online during the duration of the contest and thus they could not win the wonderful prizes. Therefore, you must present me with the artist, song, and phrase that pays in person to win. Got that? Good. I still owe Sarah the stuff from her last two victories, which she will receive on Saturday. Somebody else PLEASE win this time... not that I have anything again Sarah. *cough*... just kidding. Here goes.

I'll wait until tommorow.
Maybe you'll feel better then.
Maybe we'll be better then.
Whats another day when I can barely think
the thoughts of going on without you
This mood of yours is temporary
Just wait a week to see you smile again
Out of the corner of my eye might be
the only way you're looking at me then

Alright, that's all i've got for now. Drat... almost forgot a phrase that pays again. hmm... the phrase that pays would have to be "I can hardly wait until 9:08" Good? I thought so. L8r.

-Frankis

PS: Ritz is gonna suck. Why? I made the master tape. Me. I'm so dumb, but my mom is dumber for having me make it. She's just lazy. Night.

If your head explodes with dark forebodings too...

Mon, 04 Feb 2002 00:29:26 GMT

Some people out there are unable to correctly express the way they feel. I try to be open, but it's really just not my way at times. If any of you ever feel that you need to know what I think about a certain situation or person, go right ahead and ask. I'd be glad to share and stop this communication breakdown. Currently, I want to know that at this exact minute I am not mad at anyone and I do not give a flying fuck about the superbowl. Have I communicated a message here? Probably not, but I sure wasted those 15 minutes I had to wait to order the pizza. L8r.

-Frankis

Hey wait a sec... I need that

Sun, 03 Feb 2002 05:31:07 GMT

It feels like its been a long weekend. Friday night I went to the Blue Note in Pontiac with Jesse, Marc,Jessika, and Kelly. We saw Hot Paws which was actually pretty good, then we went to Wendys. We ate our food at Jesse's house and about 11:45 we decided that maybe we should get going before we were all late.
Saturday Night(Which it still is, kinda) I went to the ForeverEnding show in Pedro's Basement out at 15&Dodge Park. There were a bunch of really shitty bands that played and then FE was made to be the "main event" which is really the way it ended up. We got thrown out about 10:30, waited for Jesse to get back from dropping off some girls, and then at 11:15 we found ourselves at Wendys. I got my dinner and we sat in our cars eating until Jesse and Kelly were done having their personal time and I could drive her home. I just got in from that.

This week is gonna be busy. I'm working Wednesday and Friday. The run-thru for Ritz is on thursday night and the performance is saturday. Did you hear that? Yes, all you choir people. Oh, wait... you're not going to be there... just a big empty stage with mrs Bennett all nervous in the center, wondering why nobody showed up. That would be hilarious.

The following congratulations are in order:
Sarah - For winning again and again in the contest.
Melissa - For making the play and getting a job... one of which was expected and the other is just weird
Kelly - For not killing anybody in the basement tonite... anybody who is much more mature than us and sticks to Pedro like flies on shit
Jesse - For having a burst blood vessel in your lip
Frankis - For kicking Mephisto's ass and getting a fridge dropped on you today... hey, that's me!

I've got to be going now. I'll be here if you need me, though it seems most don't anymore. L8r.

-Frankis

Never lose your grip

Fri, 01 Feb 2002 03:39:17 GMT

That dissapearing feeling
Yet you know it is still there
The love is all but gone now
Though part of you still cares
If you can feel it inside
Deep within your heart
Then you know what should be
Then we cannot stay apart
I never lost a moment
I think of nothing but you
And now I cannot turn my back
Because inside you feel it too

I just wrote that as I went along. We all know why. I just got back from work and I'm gonna eat this sandwich now. You can't stop me. I've shoveled(sp) way too much snow today for you to deny me from eating this sandwich. Deal? Deal.

-Frankis

Thu, 31 Jan 2002 00:44:09 GMT

Sarah wins again. You all just didn't act fast enough. Better luck next time. Congratulations on your THIRD fucking win Sarah.

-Frankis

One day we're all gonna tell each other exactly what we think... then the whole planet will explode

Wed, 30 Jan 2002 22:21:20 GMT

Number of people still pissed at Frankis: 0

It all seems alright in my neck of the woods. All fights have been resolved... I know not everybody has stopped being pissed at me, but I mean all the people that actually matter. Not the fuckers. I would like to add that Sarah has won the last 2 lyrics contests. She is the only one ever to win. That should affect some of you, though I know it doesn't. I'll just put another one up here for Sarah to win... unless one of you can beat me to it. This time, you need the band name, the song name, the phase that pays, and the number of the prize you would like. That's right, all four. This can be delivered in a comment or directly to me. I don't really care either way. Ready? First things first, the lyrics:

Her mind is definately twisted
She got a mercedes benz
She got a lot of pretty pretty boys
That she calls friends
How they dance in the courtyard
Sweet summer sweat
Some dance to remember
Some dance to forget
So I called up the captain
Please bring me my wine
He said we haven't had that spirt here
Since 1969.

That's all you get. Classic, and in the middle of the song.
Prize list: I will have a prize list in my 5th pocket. Pick a number between 1 and 3, and that is the prize you will get. It'll be a suprise, kinda like the Schlieffen Plan. Might work about as well... I'm done, just go ahead and try your luck. L8r.

-Frankis

Addition made at 7:38pm: Sarah informed me that there was no phase that pays. My mistake, I forgot to add one. Here it is.... The phrase that pays is "How much does it cost?" Sorry for that mistake.

Let's all wake up tommorow....

Tue, 29 Jan 2002 02:43:03 GMT

I'm sorry to make a second post of the day, but I've got something on my mind that is starting to bother me again. I was in the back of AP today and Steve looks to me and says "It's weird that this happend. What if one of us died tommorow?" I just typed out this entry from this point forward 3 times. I can't clearly place what to say. I'm questioning my own mortality, along with everyone else's. I'm not even sure what the hell is gonna happen next. I'm sick of thinking about this, so let's all get one thing straight. If it's all over tommorow... then I'd be pissed. There's still too much I have to do. All of us still have a lot left to take care of. We've gotta live for each day, knowing nothing of the future. Take the chance and cross the bridge when you come to it. What do I want to do before it's over? Write a short story I'm satisfied with, get somebody to sing my song, and get back my word(starts with F, ends with ucker). Yes, there is more, but let's wait until we get there. I'm gonna wake up tommorow and be alive. So are all of you. Why? Because I told you so. No, you don't have to listen to me all the time. Only when I tell you to survive. I'm gonna stop because I started typing this post a long time ago and now I'm gonna finish. This time I'm seriously done. L8r days.

-Frankis

Tue, 29 Jan 2002 00:06:22 GMT

What FIGHT CLUB character are you?

Sun, 27 Jan 2002 18:37:10 GMT

Standin on your daddy's porch
You told me you would wait forever.
Oh, and when you held my hand
I knew that it was now or never.
Those were the best days of my life.

Another Innocent Life is Lost

Sun, 27 Jan 2002 00:04:15 GMT

Just wanted to get on here and let anybody who is not yet aware that Rebecca Kris was killed in a car accident last night. She was EDHS class of 2001. I figured i'd make you aware of the situation.

I don't know how I feel right now. I didn't know Rebecca very well, yet somehow when I heard the news I felt total sorrow. Nobody our age should die. This should never happen. My head is splitting and my back aches from all the shit I did at solo/ensamble... and then as we were all cheering about Brian's 1st Division, somebody broke the news to us. I just don't know anymore... this is happening way too often. A dark cloud seems to be cursing us all. God's will be; may Becky rest in peace.

-Frankis

Secondary Note:
Melissa, I want to bring to your attention that I am a stupid stupid person. I'm sick of being in fights with people and so I just said you could have the word to stop any anger before it started. Would it have? No. Is the word really yours? That's to be decided at another time. As for Sarah, I don't want that fight to go on so i'll take blame for all problems there too. As long as everyone lives, I'm fine with it.

This isn't fair, but who really cares

Thu, 24 Jan 2002 00:12:16 GMT

Sarah has won the contest directly below on a technicality. Just so all of you know, the song Sympathy for The Devil is by the Rolling Stones. It may have been covered by Guns and Roses, but it is a stones song. So eat that. Sarah gets ice cream now. That is all I have to say.

-Frankis

Ms. K's thought of today: "Never give up on anyone. Miracles happen everyday"

My Response: "Wow, being an optimist must suck."

Friday night's movie is gonna rock your mom so hard, you'll wish you were a lefty

Wed, 23 Jan 2002 22:56:38 GMT

Alright, Sarah won the last contest and made off with my $3.50. She's convinced that she can figure out anything I put up here, and last night she told me that she does not like the movie Monty Python and the Holy Grail. That pissed me off so much that I've decided to post this contest. I wasn't gonna do this one, but I just need to prove that Sarah can't do it. Here goes, for $3.50.

Please allow me to introduce myself
I'm a man of wealth and taste
I've been around for a long long year,
so many men had seen my face.
I was 'round when Jesus Christ had his moment of doubt and pain
Be damn sure that Pilate washed his hands, sealed his fate.
Pleased to meet you, hope you've guessed my name.
Puzzling you is just the nature of my game.
I stuck around St. Petersburg
When I saw it was a time for a change.
Killed the Czar and his ministers
Anastacia screamed in vain
I rode a tank, held a General's Rank
When the Blitzkrieg rolled like the snake.
Pleased to meet you, hope you've guessed my name.
Confusing you is just the nature of my game.

That will be all. I know that you can't get it and that's the fun part. Oh, and by the way, the phrase that pays is "FUCKERS!" Real simple. You know what the best part is? That's my word. L8r days.

-Frankis

For all of you who wondered what the hell was written up and down my arms all day...

Tue, 22 Jan 2002 23:22:51 GMT

Come on without, Come on within,
You'll not see nothing like the Mighty Quinn
Come on without, Come on within,
You'll not see nothing like the Mighty Quinn

Everybody's building ships and boats
Some are building monuments, others jotting down notes
Everybody's in dispair, every girl and boy
But when Quinn the Eskimo gets here, everybody's gonna jump for joy

Come on without, Come on within,
You'll not see nothing like the Mighty Quinn
Come on without, Come on within,
You'll not see nothing like the Mighty Quinn

I like to go just like the rest, I like my sugar sweet.
But jumping Kings and making haste just ain't my cup of meat.
Everyone's beneath the trees, feeding pigeons on a limb.
But when Quinn the Eskimo gets here, all the pigeons gonna run to him.

Come on without, Come on within,
You'll not see nothing like the Mighty Quinn
Come on without, Come on within,
You'll not see nothing like the Mighty Quinn

Let me do what I wanna do, I can't decide on my own.
Just tell me where to put it, and I'll tell you who to call
Nobody can sleep with someone on everyone's toes;
But when Quinn the Eskimo gets here, everybody's gonna wanna doze.

Come on without, Come on within,
You'll not see nothing like the Mighty Quinn
Come on without, Come on within,
You'll not see nothing like the Mighty Quinn

Come on without, Come on within,
You'll not see nothing like the Mighty Quinn
Come on without, Come on within,
You'll not see nothing like the Mighty Quinn

Well, that just fucking rocks(yeah, I can say fuck and not have to give anybody money.. tho I give away quarters anyways...) It's old but it's good and if you wanna download it you're a smart one. I've resolved the fight with Melissa and I feel alright now... I even ate today. Twice! I also want you to know that I haven't had this sweet new computer for a month and my dad has already fucked(no quarter) it all up. He's a fucker(my word)! I guess that'll be all for now and if you didn't want to read a whole song just to get to this short post I recommmend you don't sit down in the middle of a roller rink during a concert. I'm out. L8r

-Frankis

This goes out to you, because you are all that matters

Mon, 21 Jan 2002 23:08:35 GMT

I know that this is too little too late and that I've really screwed up this time, but I want you to know that I trust you over anybody else. I know that you would never have done anything to hurt me. I am sorry for the moments I lost my faith in you. You meant everything and I lost sight of what I wanted when people started filling my head with stupid lies. I believe you and you will always be one of the best people I have ever known. It kills me to lose you again, now that I was so close to being with you once more. I wish I had crossed each bridge when I came to it. I'll always feel the same about you, no matter what.

-Frank

Now and forever... I am the cheese.

Thu, 17 Jan 2002 15:56:28 GMT

I would like you all to know that until somebody comes up to me in person to get their money and tells me the phase that pays(it's a good one, eh?) then anybody can still get their dirty hands on my money. Courtney would like you all to know that she doesn't hate me and she's not mad at me but she thinks I am a total dumbass. So I've got that goin for me.

-Frankis

The Phase that Pays is "Look, it's a ten gauge you fuckers!"

Thu, 17 Jan 2002 01:15:45 GMT

Look, I happen to enjoy winter. It's great. I dunno why, but it just is. However, right now i'm kinda pissed at it. Why? I was in my mom's jeep (4-Wheel Drive) and when I came to Gratiot the brakes went out. Why? Too damn wet. So as I coasted into the right lane of the avenue and the towing truck came 3 inches from the car, I decided that maybe I wouldn't be eating anything from out tonite. On the way home (2 Blocks) the brakes went out once more and I went into a skid twice. All in all, it was a really fun experience during which I almost fucking died.

I wasn't planning on updating tonite, but I felt like putting this in here. Finals were easy today, but i've got a tough ass one tommorow. PreCalc ...ew. I spent about 2 hours teaching myself the whole subject this afternoon. Now what? I'll give it a shot. I think you should give something else a shot... like perhaps a Lyrics Contest. Yes, that's right. It's back. Here comes one with the same old rules, yet a new Phrase that pays. You must know both. Due to the collapsing economy, the contest is now only giving away $3.50, but what can ya do. I'll stop rambling and now and give you the lyrics. Good fucking luck.

-Frankis

I am still living with your ghost
Lonely and dreaming of the west coast
I don't wanna be your down time
I don't wanna be your stupid game
With my big black boots and an old suitcase
I do believe i'll find myself a new place
I don't wanna be the bad guy
I don't wanna do your sleep walk dance
I just wanna see some palm trees
Find a way to shake away this disease.

You know you got this one^^

"I haven't felt the way I feel today in so long it's hard for me to specify...."

Wed, 16 Jan 2002 02:24:31 GMT

Well, I'll get this off my chest... I'm better now, that's whats important. I want to thank everybody who made me feel better, because you saved my life. I was down in a rut and contemplating suicide for the first time in a while, but thanks to Emily M, Jessika, Kelly, Andy, Phil, and anybody else who talked me thru this. It's tough but i've made it thru this shit, and I'll be fine. Thanks for everything, especially the birthday party. That shit means everything to me.

Ok, thats done. I got my pirate telescope so fucking booya. I have a final tommorow in Government(Simple) and then I get to leave. That's right, no 2nd hour final so I can walk out and go home. I was planning on giving Melissa the stuff I had for her from christmas on one of the final days anyway, and since she gave me my telescope it just proves that we had the same thought. Lemme just say that the presence of a friendship places an ease on the situation, but the first month with her felt a lot better than the first month without her. I'm done here because I'm gonna go burn my cd. I wanna thank everybody one last time and assure you all that I'm not going to kill myself or anybody else at anytime soon. L8r.

-Frankis